Anonymous asked: Sorry you're having such a bad week. While I like the idea of you posting more here, I wish it was for a happier reason. Take care of yourself...
Anon, I promise you, I’ve tried to be positive lately. This past week I’ve tried to force myself to be happy. I’ve tried to convince myself that all the things I saw going wrong were all in my head. When it turned out that those problems were quite real it broke my will to force positivity. I’ve been having breakdowns almost daily, and I think that the only way I can get better is to acknowledge and work through my emotional states and writing helps me through that.
Sometimes I wish that I knew who you are. I feel like if you knew the whole story, if I could tell you exactly what’s going down and why I’m a wreck without telling anyone who can search out my blog you’d be able to understand.
I’m trying but I’m swimming against the current.
